Just a small update so my readers know why I haven’t written much in the last 2 months:

  • Exhaustion - Working 8-10 hours a day writing software and documentation means that my physical ability to continue writing on my website is diminished.
    • I use speech to text most of the day, and after 7-10 hours I’m already mentally and orally fatigued from the process. I need to switch my mental process to something else.
    • Simply sitting in front of a computer all day curtails my appetite for engaging with a computer screen in my off hours.
  • Software - I was unable to build and deploy this site for 6 weeks because of a dependency issue with Jekyll on my system. I spent nearly 30 hours trying to figure it out, including attempting to completely nuke ruby from my system. Demoralizing and vexing.
    • I STILL don’t know what’s wrong. I’m on a new computer that seems to work.
      • Not being able to properly write on the same system that I do most of my music/hobby work on makes it difficult to stay motivated to write new content.
  • Pneumonia - I spent this last 2 weeks (one of which was supposed to be my vacation!) with bacterial pneumonia. As of this post it is still not fully cleared.
    • I suggest against having pneumonia. It is quite unpleasant.
  • Disenchantment - Not burnout, I still love toying around with audio software, taking notes, testing etc… However, my desire to publish my thoughts to the public has been atrophied. It’s a combination of oral fatigue, nasty e-mails, shrinking communities (or moving to new platforms?) and a more fulfilling dayjob.
    • I would say that 95% of this website is a result of me being bored with the work or time I spent working on audio engineering tasks. I’m not bored during the day anymore (and I don’t work primarily on audio/music). Fulfillment happens elsewhere. The yearning to fill in the gaps with writing is nullified, I fill in the gaps as part of my daily working process now.
  • It might sound silly, but the Digital Performer 11 update was depressing, in the literal sense. When that was released, I simply lost all interest in audio software as a concept. I’ve plugged along using Logic Pro X without a single thought of ‘software’. I’m not sure I’ve surmounted that psychological hurdle yet. What a rubbish update, and if that’s what people truly want then well…

I’ve been working through my thoughts to come up with an adaptation to these changes. It’s a slow process, as I’m continually skeptical of each supposed epiphany, conclusion or burst of motivation.

That said, I still have 2 more Mixbus posts to finish :) I will be updating the site features (DAW Chart, DAW Wants and FreeBees) as time and pneumonia recovery permit.

Along with this post, I’ve hopefully fixed the issue with the header system. Interviews should display correctly.

The Health page has been updated with information about my leg braces and some lifestyle changes. I’ve also updated pharmaceutical information for migraines.


This post took:

  • 30 hours to screw with Ruby, and fail.
  • 12 hours to come up with a workable solution to the header issue on interviews and long-winded topics.
  • 2 hours to update the Health page
  • 3 hours to get distracted and mess with Digital Performer 11 again. It’s still hooey.
  • 1.75 hours to write this.